Gosh! I'm so damn happy now!
Wanna know why!?
My crush accepted my Facebook-Friend-Request!
Now, you may think that that's nothing special, but you have no idea about him....(and me, actually....)
I have to admit, that I'm not AND I MEAN I TOTALLY SUCK good at flirting..... Want to hear an example?
Fine. In grade 7&8 I had a crush on a boy in my class. We never talked much, so I was really happy when he sat next to me in computerroom one day. Stupidly that was the day our classphotos had been uploaded. (I was ill that day). So, I wasn't on the picture, looked at it, and said to the guy: "Hey, you're wearing the same T-Shirt today!" He turned to me with a disgusted look on his face, answered a very slow yes, and..... sat down somewhere else. So, that's that.
But I have another story that needs to be told. In year 6 I fell in love with a guy named Max. We were on a classtrip together and I got his phonenumber etc. So we were texting throughout the whole summerholidays and on the first day of school I was surrounded by my friends and actually everybody. They were laughing and curious about everything. Well, I didn't think much about all that (loveblind, probably...) and so it took me some time to figure out that it was a fake number and that I was writing to a couple of his friends, loughing about all of my texts......
So, now you know that there is no good base for love and me, don't you?
Even I myself thought so.
But then, in grade 8, I really fell in love with a guy named Marian. He was so damn cool and he liked me, too. So, one could say I was pretty lucky. But, neither one of us had enough skill (lol) to make the first step and so....we stayed friends. Then, I did something stupid. Posted various facebookpost with him tagged. He told me that he doesn't want that and so I stopped. But then, I forgot. We had to change classrooms and I wrote a protesting post, tagging my whole class. Including him. It all ended with him unfriending me on facebook, me trying to refriend, him blocking me, him moving about one year ago (that had nothing to do with me or facebook
) and me finding out that he deleted his facebook-account. That broke my heart. The first term of this year was totally horrible. My marks were superbad and I was completely down and depressed. Everybody was saying bad things about him and he quickly became a phenomenon, and it broke my heart whenever I heard his name. Later, I thought I got over it and yesterday, when I was stalking my new next-schoolyears-classmates on fb, I thought: Why not look for him? So that's what I did, and I really thought there would be no result. But there was. A black and white profile picture. AND HE STILL LOOKS SO DAMN HOT! *wow* So I sent him a friendrequest. And checking my facebook bout an hour ago-HE ACCEPTED!
Now I just don't know what to do!
I can only hope that that's no fake account! :3
The Toad in Love